Nerve

Nerve and I go way back. In fact, we've known each other our whole lives but we've grown much closer over the last twenty years or so. Nerve comes from a large family and even though I never knew any of their names, we were all very close. Sadly, Nerve's family members have all disappeared over the years. We lost a lot of them while driving and standing in lines. Others were literally there one second and gone the next. The rest of them perished in The Great Land of Child Rearing in the mid 90's.

One day Nerve and I looked around and they were all gone. All of them. Immediate panic set in both of us. Was Nerve next? Would he be there one second and gone the next too or just Poof! while I was reading all the spelling errors in the local newspaper one day?

Alas, there was nothing we could do except wait and see what would happen. The first few days were the worst. Every time I sneezed or dropped something Nerve would jump. [Related but not Relevant Rambling - One really cool thing about Nerve and me, we just "get" each other. So much so that when Nerve is jumpy or anxious so am I. We are always extremely hyper or really chill at the same time too. It's so strange but simultaneously awesome!] We were on pins and needles (not literally!) for weeks then one day we realized Nerve wasn't going anywhere.  That's the day I loving nicknamed him Last.

There have been times over the years when Nerve has been stretched extremely thin from doing the work of dozens of his departed family members. But, he stood strong with me through 1's and 2's teen years and is still by my side now as we try to survive 3's. Nerve and I have been through so much together that I honestly don't know what I would do without him. Sometimes, as I lay in bed at night fretting, I think about how Nerve's family disappeared and I worry that that he will vanish one day too. It scares me because I have this strange feeling if that were to ever happen I will just absolutely lose it!

~Michizzle